Pity Party Busted
It has been a crappy week for me! I was in this fog with autopilot turned on and couldn’t get a grip on myself. The week had FINALLY ended and I was enjoying my Saturday morning cup of Joe on my patio. All of the sudden, I had this incredible urge to cry… What the hell! I DON’T cry…but I let myself anyway.
Through my mini boo hoo episode, it occurred to me…I was tired and felt lost. Not the typical tired after a long week at the office but emotionally tired. I spend a lot of time BEing there for others. Between parenting, working, keeping up with the chores and running errands, I had forgotten about being there for the one who was carrying all this weight. ME!
It’s so easy to fall into this slump of whoa when life is in second gear all the time. I was finding myself blaming others and my circumstances while I was in my own pity party mentality. The reality is, I needed to step up to the responsibility plate. I am the only one who can control my happiness, or lack thereof. When you are moving full speed ahead, you are denying yourself the opportunity to look at your aim and direction to be sure it’s what’s best for you. Next thing you know, you are in a sea of decisions that were determined by those around you. I don’t know about you but, I prefer to take personal
responsibility for my life rather than letting others dictate it for me.
So picture this, you’re holding a 5 pound weight…easy right?! You hold this weight for a while and it gets a little heavier and heavier. After an hour or so that 5 pound weight feels like 10, 20, 30 pounds. If I were to set the weight down and take a break for a
minute or two, when I pick that weight up again, it would return to feeling light again. The point I am making here is, it is our responsibility to take a step back every once in a while and recharge ourselves. Reevaluate yourself and your situations you are surrounded by. When you are clear with what you want and what supports you as a person, it gives you the strength to forge ahead.
In case you are wondering…I am back to myself and owning my place of happiness. The Pity Party was Busted by my Personal Responsibility!
About Jennifer Adams:
Heal, fuel, feed, repeat…
Here I am taking the journey from corporate life to purpose life. I have climbed the ladder of life in parenting, work and self-development. What once was a woman who lived the “should” life, I became inspired to live the purposeful life. Always finding myself being the one people called for help or answers, I decided to pursue a career in it. With a suitcase of wisdom and carry-on of wit, I am traveling to the land of passion. I rock at bringing out the inner awesome in others. It was always there in various stages and capacities but I pushed it aside to do what I was “supposed” to do. The gates have opened and I am off…to chase the dream of breaking down the walls and limiting beliefs that keep others from truly showing up for this thing called life.
A little background about me:
From single mom at 18 to Vice President of a Corporation at 38. I spent 20 years healing, fueling, and feeding. I dropped out of high school 2 months before graduation, pregnant, and got my GED. I went to work full time at various jobs always working to make ends meet. I have what I like to call a “Custom College Degree.” I took more classes than what it took to get a degree, just not in the traditional curriculum determined by the schools. I have accounting, business and information technology education that I needed to get the job done, do it well and move up. It worked! I am now married with two awesome kids and I have no regrets. I love working out and living a healthy life style. My dream is to have a log house on the water with tons of property for flowers, vegetables and English Bulldogs and you know what, I WILL have it! Stay Tuned….